Once finishing my first read
(Yes, I confess, I needed to savor this one several times) I had to step back,
catch my breath and process all the feels.
This one totally did me in above and beyond any…and I mean ANY of Kristen
Ashley’s tales. I was completely destroyed throughout most of this story
courtesy of Millie. For personal reasons, I connected with her character, her
heartache and all that she had suffered; she just touched me more than any other
heroine I’ve encountered. There was so
much to take in – the raw passion, the love, the hurt, the correlation between
the beauty of this couple’s second chance and the pain endured during years of
separation... I was an emotional wreck. Cried ugly tears and sniffled my way
through boxes of tissues before the broken pieces of my soul were placed back
together. Walk Through Fire was amazing
and worth every damn tear I shed.

Walk Through Fire is the fourth installment in my absolute favorite
biker series – CHAOS. This time, it’s the enigmatic Logan “High” Judd’s turn to
rip off his mask and tell his story. In past novels, High struck me as both
mysterious and troublesome. I didn’t
know what to expect from his character and honestly, when meeting him in Motorcycle Man I didn’t care for him. He was at odds with MY Tack, bucking heads and creating tension within the
club. It left a bad taste in my mouth. So going in, I braced myself for the
intensity and edginess of his character, and it took me some time to warm up to
him.
I have to admit, there were
parts of this story where I had a difficult time with High’s character. There
were times I saw the ugliness in the callous way he treated Millie (mind you,
it was when they first reunited and before they had a chance to sort their
heads out). I get why he was angry, cold hearted and hurtful. Millie
unexpectedly and inexplicably tossed Logan out of her life twenty years ago, but he and his
brothers were beyond harsh. (Hop, you pissed me off, brother, and I am still holding a grudge).

But then, I reached a turning point when
realizing High was trapped within the confines of his own hell. Losing Millie destroyed him, turning him into
a bitter man, who’ll do anything to numb his heartache. Meeting Millie again, after
all these years apart, he was desperate to guard himself from further
hurt. Seeing his pain chipped away
all the resentment I held and he had my sympathies.

The story itself frequently flashes
back to the past, showing their beginnings as well as the three years they were
together. Their love was beyond beautiful and I absolutely adored the younger,
carefree Logan that gave his heart entirely to Millie. She was his world and
losing her broke him, so I totally get why he was unpleasant. Once all hell
breaks loose and Millie FINALLY explains why she pushed Logan away, (excruciatingly
intense scene) I saw his tender side emerged, causing me fall deeper in love
with him. Beneath all the sexy ruggedness, lies a passionate man who is forgiving,
loving and compassionate.
Working through my moods
swinging from raging anger to swooning over all the magnificence that was High,
I have to say all along, he was one sizzling sonnavabitch. Every time he spoke
…
”Hear?”
I freaking melted. I love a sexy bad boy and just thinking
about all his hotness gets me all riled up.

Millicent Cross… her life
tore me to shreds and made my heart hurt. In the flashbacks, we see a young, vivacious
girl who’s head over heels in love with the quintessential biker bad boy. They worked
hard to build a life together, planning their dreams and finding comfort within
the club. Until one day, it all fell apart.
Here’s the thing that pains
me about Millie - of her own volition, she walked away from true love, shattered
Logan’s heart into smithereens, while sentencing herself to a hopeless life
filled with loneliness. She suffered silently.

With out revealing any spoilers, Millie had
her reasons – and when discovering them, I was a goner and sobbed. But my head
and heart were conflicted. In the back of my mind I wanted to scream at Millie
and knock some sense into her shouting NO! How
could you do such thing? Logan’s hot, sweet and sexy, just talk to him! However, my heart understood
exactly why she chose to walk through fire for her man. Millie loves Logan so
completely, that when realizing she could not give him everything, she sacrificed herself to give him a chance to have it
all. As foolish as it may sound to purposely break two hearts, her actions
where undeniably selfless and in the end, she gave Logan the greatest gift. Her
strength was immeasurable and her devotion to Logan was absolute as she carried
the burden of blame for years.
Understanding aside, it was
hard for me to rationalize Millie’s decision; I was crushed and decimated in seeing
her anguish. Ashley penned Millie’s character in such a way that I actually
felt her emptiness echoing inside me, slicing through my heart, leaving me
aching. KA proved once again the power she holds over my emotions.
Once the truth came pouring
out, two decades worth of anger, bitterness, resentment and pain were
transformed into steamy passion. Millie and High embraced the mistakes of the
past and love they share in hopes of moving on to heal one another.
It
was one hell of a roller coaster ride feeling every emotion these characters
experienced - from moments of laughter and levity, to gut wrenching
confessions, I held on tight and enjoyed the ride.
Of course I relished all the
drama. The angst involved with Benito causing problems for club, Elvira and the
Old Ladies meddling in everyone’s affairs, family issues complicating Logan and
Millie’s lives…so many nail biting moments and I savored all the craziness. The epilogue was shorter than what I am used to, but it was sweet regardless and laid
groundwork for what may come in the next installment (cross fingers it will be
Hound’s story). What I loved most of all were the flashbacks to not only the
beginning if this couples’ relationship, but the earlier days of Chaos before
Tack took the helm. Seeing wee little Tabby and Rush (so adorable) and finally
meeting Black, the brother Chaos tragically lost. I was all weepy eyed getting
to know him briefly only to mourn him.
Another soul touching
romance gifted from Kristen Ashley’s beautiful imagination. Walk
Through Fire was a story of sacrifice, forgiveness, redemption and the everlasting
power of love. A story about strong heroine who walk through the fires of hell
for her man, and a hero who worked tirelessly to mend the broken heart of his
one true love despite his own pain. As
far as awarding stars to this read, there aren’t enough stars in the sky. Thank you, Kristen, for voicing Millie’s story
so eloquently and bringing to life the heartache involved with her
circumstances. This was not an easy story for me to read, but the experience
was incredible.
ARC received from publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review
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